Listen to him.

“Then a voice from the cloud said, “This is my Son, my Chosen One.  Listen to him.

– Luke 9:35 NLT

This starts for me at least at Jesus’ baptism:

John the Baptist had just baptized Jesus, after John had been in the wilderness and came out looking like Elijah, shouting “Prepare the way for the Lord’s coming! Clear the road for him!” [matt 3:3]  He started attracting a crowd and baptizing people and then here comes Jesus, fulfilling prophecies…

which you totally can see for yourself

which is really cool btw.

To literally read a real prophecy and then flip a few books and see it come to life..


So this beautiful thing happens. John baptizes Jesus. And in that moment when Jesus came up out of the water…

And a voice from heaven said, “This is my dearly loved Son, who brings me great joy.

– Matthew 3:17

This is Jesus’ first big event and oh my what a huge event it is. He purposefully goes to John to be baptized and in front of everyone God calls down.. Jesus isn’t just his son.. He is God’s DEARLY LOVED SON, who brings God GREAT JOY. Oh to be there in that moment.. rocking people’s lives.. people waiting for their savior,  for all of the prophecies to be fulfilled.

A year or 2 passes, Jesus is with His disciples, and He starts to tell them that he is going to go to Jerusalem and suffer and when Peter rebukes him saying that the things Jesus is saying must never happen, Jesus yells at him!

“Get behind me, Satan! You are a stumbling block to me; for you are setting your mind not on divine things but on human things.”

– Matthew 16:23

He needs them to realize who He really is. They still doubt him..

Jesus is nearing the end. Where He gives the ultimate sacrifice of giving His life. His disciples are still doubting him so he takes them to pray..

Luke 9:28-36

28 About eight days later Jesus took Peter, John, and James up on a mountain to pray. 29 And as he was praying, the appearance of his face was transformed, and his clothes became dazzling white. 30 Suddenly, two men, Moses and Elijah, appeared and began talking with Jesus. 31 They were glorious to see. And they were speaking about his exodus from this world, which was about to be fulfilled in Jerusalem.  32 Peter and the others had fallen asleep. When they woke up, they saw Jesus’ glory and the two men standing with him. 33 As Moses and Elijah were starting to leave, Peter, not even knowing what he was saying, blurted out, “Master, it’s wonderful for us to be here! Let’s make three shelters as memorials – one for you, one for Moses, and one for Elijah.” 34 But even as he was saying this, a cloud overshadowed them, and terror gripped them as the cloud covered them. 35 Then a voice from the cloud said, “This is my Son, my Chosen One. Listen to him.” 36 When the voice finished, Jesus was there alone. They didn’t tell anyone at that time what they had seen.

Jesus started with this big event of God calling from heaven declaring Him as his son and nearing the end of Jesus’ journey God does it again, with MOSES AND ELIJAH on Jesus’ sides!

Sometimes we need these big revelations to realize Jesus is standing right in front of you. We read His life story, multiple times btw, from multiple perspectives and think “how did these people not get it?!”


We do it all. the. time.

Jesus is always with us, speaking, nudging, protecting and so much more and yet we sit blinded and angry yelling “Where is my God?!”  He is right there in front of you. Waiting for you to listen, waiting for us to say “Speak, your servant is listening.” [1 Samuel 3:10]

His BIG events that we are always looking for are in His life stories.. right there in the bible.  How many times does God have to call down from heaven for us to understand that Jesus is with us and that we must listen?

This is been something on my heart so much lately. I love to talk.. anyone who knows me can back this fact up, but I do not like to listen. I struggle dearly with this. I know what people say before their sentences end, and I know what they feel by their mannerisms and I cut them off and dismiss their feelings.. I do this to God too. The creator, the savior.. my father. He deserves my respect and my ear.

So these are the stories I’m reading to remember who Jesus is.

And that I should




Sick for LYFE

… as cool as the 90’s were they had nothing on this week. With in only 7 days we had 1 ear infection, 2 pink eyes (2 different kids that is), 3 people with lice and 2 head colds… this was only one weeks span.

I have been pretty angry this week. I know that I am doing God’s will. Our lives have been changing immensely. Hubs has joined a men’s group that goes DEEP and i have been doing a small group that goes DEEP. In the midst of that i started a new job at my church, Aaron started doing sound, we have been getting our finances in order so we can be better prepared for our future and i think because of that someone is not happy about it.

My pastor’s wife gave the staff a verse to dwell on this week because illness and financial burdens have been ‘plaguing’ all of the staff these past few weeks:

“James, a servant of God and of the Lord Jesus Christ, To the twelve tribes scattered among the nations: Greetings. Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind.”

‭‭James‬ ‭1:1-6‬ ‭NIV‬‬

While my anger has come and gone this week, i keep coming back to this verse. Joy. I find joy in that this is a season. I find joy that my kids and my husband and I are ok.

I find joy in the fact and we are on the correct path, the tough, sicko, financially draining, but so worth it path.

I hope that if any of you are struggling this week with anger, hopelessness and/or depression that you find this passage encouraging. 

The Humble Brag

1 Peter 5:6

So humble yourselves under the mighty power of God, and at the right time he will lift you up in honor.

being humble is pretty hard.. with instagram, facebook and so many other social media outlets we can constantly show everyone how great you are.

BUT then I think of the mighty power of God. that power that created the earth, that formed a human being inside me, that made the perfect clouds and the scent of roses.

I live in a place where poor means you have a cell phone, internet, a roof over your head and food to eat, but you dont have the newest vehicle and you cant get the best smart tv.  I have nothing to worry about, my children are taken care of, my husband and I have good jobs, and while it feels tight in our finances at times, we can afford to live in our rich culture.  I am humbled by that. I am humbled by the fact that Jesus chose me to live in 2017 in america. I am humbled that i’m not pulling salt out of the bottom of a lake for $10 a day, or that i dont have think about what my children and I are going to eat or where we will sleep at night. I’m humbled that I grew up in a christian family where they taught me how to love people.  I’m humbled that I am loved, that I am given what I dont deserve, that I live a life that some dream of having.


I have been complaining a lot… about my finances, about my husband working too much and me being too busy, that my kids have been too stir crazy in the cold, that im not losing weight and i’m so tired all the time.

Jesus remind me of your MIGHTY POWER. remind me that in my weakness you are strong.  That you provide for my family, keep us healthy and so many other amazing things. I’m sorry for forgetting your goodness. You are amazing.


and now a challenge. Someone told me they try to walk into a place and see something new every day. walk into a room and see something something new. a new face, a new decoration something new.  And pray for someone.

pray for anyone. just pray for someone other than yourself.




“Submit to God, and you will have peace;  then things will go well for you.”

Job 22:21


It’s funny that this verse is used at all as an example of submission. Eliphaz was talking to Job and accusing him of all of these sinful things he MUST have done to deserve all the hardship that Job encountered when the opposite was true. Job was a righteous man. God says he was. Job didn’t deserve what happened to him, but it still happened.  While submitting to God will bring us peace and things might go well for us it will not always be true. Submitting to God does not automatically mean we will have all of these wonderful things happen to us it just means we are being obedient without the expectation of reward.

it’s a lot like a mom. I don’t do the dishes, laundry and multitude of chores that pile up every day for a reward… i do them because they need to be done. i do them out of obedience to my household. God loves me when i’m lazy and I don’t do house work and he loves me when i’m motivated and do do housework. Good things happen in my house when it’s clean, but bad things happen in my house when it’s clean too…

It never quiet explained the ‘moral to the story’ in Job but so many lessons about doubt, honor, obedience, strength, submission and lesson upon lesson can be learned in Job.


I hope you all have a great week.


My word of the year


2016 was crazy. We did a lot. not only did we do a lot but it was a year with more changes.. there are always changes!! I guess by now I would be used to them, but i’m not and it throws me off and I feel like 2016 turned into the year of no time for God.

no time for God.

that breaks my heart. My heart is for Jesus, He is my number one, my life, my strength.. but something happened this year and it’s like I just had no motivation any more.

I want motivation back. I want conviction, yearning, hunger.. i want those back.

I realized I can’t make those come back. I can’t force motivation, hunger, conviction.. those are all natural tendencies and if those are going to come back I have to submit.

I have to submit to God, to a relationship with Him, submit to what He is telling me, to where He wants me to go and what He wants me to do.


I don’t know how to do this. I’m the most controlling person I know. I continually fail at submitting to my husband, myself, my kids.. I am a mess at submitting, but thats what makes it beautiful I guess… to not know… because that’s what submitting is.. letting go.

Googled “Definition of Submit”:

  1. accept or yield to a superior force or to the authority or will of another person.
     – give in/way, yield, back down, cave in, capitulate;  surrender, knuckle under

                         “she submitted under duress”
     – be governed by, abide by, be regulated by, comply with, accept, adhere to, be subject to, agree to, consent to, conform to
                         “he refused to submit to their authority”

so i’m starting with bible studying.. here I go.

Psalms 2:9-11:

You will break them with an iron rod
and smash them like clay pots.’”
Now then, you kings, act wisely!
Be warned, you rulers of the earth!
Serve the Lord with reverent fear,
and rejoice with trembling.

some translations say  in verse 9 “dash them in pieces like a potter’s vessel.” usually when the potter is referenced in the bible it’s talking about ‘the maker’ or God.  I see this particular verse and while it looks like God is just going to destroy all the nations I just looks to me like he’s going to break them, as in break their hearts, and put them together in His image.

Verse 10 & 11 are a little more straight forward, God wants the kings/rulers/leaders of the nations to turn to Him, respect Him, fear Him.. I mean could you imagine the world submitting to God. what a beautiful world.

I thought this was a pretty fitting passage for the new year (which was randomly just at the top of 56 verses about submitting).  One, it teaches me that one way to submit is to respect God and know that He is in charge of this world no matter what leaders are. Two, because of our new president. Our country is so divided.. understandably. there are 2 much different views in this country right now. But I have hope and I pray desperately that our new ruler of our country reads this verse and serves the Lord with reverent fear and rejoices with trembling. in the mean time I’m going to try to do that too.

excuse my misspellings and horrible horrible grammar, but it’s my thing and my blog.

love tlainey


Matthew 6:26 -34

“26 Look at the birds. They don’t plant or harvest or store food in barns, for your heavenly Father feeds them. And aren’t you far more valuable to him than they are? 27 Can all your worries add a single moment to your life? 28 “And why worry about your clothing? Look at the lilies of the field and how they grow. They don’t work or make their clothing, 29 yet Solomon in all his glory was not dressed as beautifully as they are. 30 And if God cares so wonderfully for wildflowers that are here today and thrown into the fire tomorrow, he will certainly care for you. Why do you have so little faith? 31 “So don’t worry about these things, saying, ‘What will we eat? What will we drink? What will we wear?’ 32 These things dominate the thoughts of unbelievers, but your heavenly Father already knows all your needs. 33 Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need. 34 “So don’t worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today’s trouble is enough for today.”

There are a few lessons to be learned in this passage.

ONE. He will always provide.

He gives the birds food, He turns caterpillars in the butterflies, I mean the birds fly from the North to the South for the winter! They don’t have to be in the AP classes to do all of those things.. they just DO them, because God commanded them to.  NOW, even though we should always be striving for the best, it doesn’t mean God loves us less because we are not the top dog.  I just think He is trying to say that He will meet all of your needs, no matter what. So when things are not going your way, or the best is just out of reach, talk to Him, He will provide what He knows you need in His timing.


Knowing He will provide for us means we can’t worry about what is to come because we can’t predict or manipulate the future to do what we want it to do, which means we have to trust that God knows what He is doing (which he does, btw).  

THREE.  Don’t dwell on what you look like on the outside.

This is so hard. We want to look pretty/handsome.  We dont want to be embarrassed, made fun of or feel like we are not part of the crowd.  The bigger picture is though, when you are a christian, you are already not part of the crowd. God wants us to be working on what we look like on the inside, and when we do that it radiates on the outside.

How does God provide for you?

What are ways God has taken control of your life when you were worried He might not?

What’s one way you can work on your inside and a way you can let go of working on your outside?

Find Faith in the Battle

my favorite song right now?  Fix My Eyes | For King & Country

the chorus is beautiful.

Love like I’m not scared

Give when it’s not fair

Live life for another

Take time for a brother

Fight for the weak ones

Speak out for freedom

Find faith in the battle

Stand tall but above it all

Fix my eyes on You

On You

beautiful right!?

a couple verses this week:

We live in our bubble and it is very hard to see people through anyone else’s eyes other than our own. God wants us to love people which means we have to have a different point of view of people. He wants us to see people as He sees them. It will change the way you have relationships and so much more.

Paul had just been through an extremely hard time in his life and still came out of it undefeated. He’s telling the church here that it doesn’t matter what the outside world does to us, Jesus will ALWAYS take care of us. We can go through heart ache, be poor, beaten, rejected and so much more and STILL get through it with God.

We confuse conviction and condemnation quite a bit in the christian culture and I think Paul wrote this perfectly. When you are convicted you feel led to do the right thing, to forgiveness. When you are condemned you want to turn away and it doesnt lead you to God. Can you get mad when convicted? Yes. But conviction will still lead you to Jesus unless you choose to turn away from Him.

This wasn’t about money. We wasn’t going to give every christian a ton of money. He sacrificed so much for us. He became human and died on the cross so we could be rich in life, become saved, and be in heaven with Him.

God always provides. He wants us to pour out to others not ONLY to help them, but so He can pour into us again and again.

Love you!


our first

8 years ago I lost a little girl. We named her Kenzie Lybertie and I carried her for 4 months before I lost her. It was the hardest thing I had ever went through in my life. At that point I felt like such a failure as a woman, devastated that I couldn’t fix what was ‘wrong’ with me. I thankfully had people in my life praying, supporting and there for me or I think my life would be different today.

I can look back now on that day with sweetness, knowing my daughter is in heaven, knowing that NOTHING was wrong with me and Jesus had me that whole time. I have 3 of the most amazing kids on planet earth and 2 little ones in heaven and I count myself a very blessed mom for that. I never want to live through that pain EVER again, but im so thankful for the road I have traveled.

To all moms out there that have lost a little one: you are not alone, you are loved, there is nothing wrong with you, and your baby is with Jesus.

From my husband:
Don’t forget the Dads too. It was just as hard for me during that time that I couldn’t even talk about it for over a year with out tearing up while I talked about it. Loosing a little one is rough on both parents. I am so blessed to have the amazing wife that I have in Tavi Laine White and so blessed with the three beautiful kids that we have now and knowing that there are two waiting in heaven for the rest of the family. To all the fathers who have lost any kids your not alone either and God has you in his hands and will be there always to help you through the tough times no matter how hard it may get.


i talk a lot about all this food I cook, but I dont post my own pictures! Here are some from this week:

My shrimp fried rice… minus the soy sauce because I got to the last step and realized we didn’t have any!! thankfully I have an awesome husband who seriously ran to the store and grabbed some for us so dinner was saved!  I got the recipe from here: 

these are HEAVEN!! Link here: is just one of my breakfasts, fried eggs, hollandaise, avocado, cheese and english muffins!

another.. I like eggs. lol  and last, but the best breakfast: eggs Benedict.. my first time making it, poached eggs and all.  They came out great! I learned to do this here:


woah commitment slow your roll.  I used to be the most committed person in the whole world I think.  I was so afraid to disappoint that I showed up everywhere early and I never backed out of anything I said yes to.  It’s not only how I was raised, but I was also so afraid to disappoint that it was almost a crippling fear to me.

Well, then I went through real life. (ps, an orange tractor just drove past my house.. which is in town.. what?!)  I went through the disappointment of people missing things they said they would show up to, missed going to things because rides backed out, and just plain got told no about things that meant a lot to me.  I also had kids, which basically meant I had to be late to everything, always. I slowly stopped committing in my life, backing out last minute or just plain told people no as well.  I eventually did nothing, so of course this is something that God has been working with me lately.

I say yes. I go to things that I can go to, and if I know I can’t I tell them the truth.  I’m not perfect and I never ever ever ever EVER will be, but i’m getting better at opening my heart and my commitments to others.

here are some great verses from this week:

Tithe is such a touchy subject I think and I don’t even understand why.. I think you can look up christians and non-christians alike and they will all tell you that when you give, you receive so much more.  This is Paul talking to the church about how they should not going be giving, but they should take the money out at the first of the week every week instead of right before he comes.  One, this give God the first of your money which I think is important spiritually because you showing God that He is first in your life.  Two, this makes sure you don’t lose or spend that money as time goes on, which has happened to me a lot and then i’m struggling hardcore to make up for that money again.  I don’t know if it is mediatory or not to give tithe.. I think that will be something I definitely study in the future, but I can tell you that my family has personally reaped the rewards of tithing.  We are not late on bills, there has never been a bill we can’t pay and when we are struggling something always happens to get us back on track.  That is an awesome testament to the world we live in, because a lot of people are struggling out there.  SO, give, and do it first before anything else.. see what happens. 🙂

I think this is a beautiful verse to tell us how much we mean to God.  He is who enables us, He fills us with the Holy Spirit, He identifies us as His own, He guarantees everything He has promised us.  SO many awesome things God gives us.

Someone had did something bad in the church that Paul was writing to at the time and it must have been pretty bad because he basically got punished, but he repented, he knew that what he did was wrong so Paul is telling them to forgive and comfort him before he basically leaves.  People do bad things, and there definitely needs to be consequences for the those things, but once they have asked for forgiveness we need to forgive them and love them and comfort them, strengthen them, counseling, anything that will help and encourage that person.  That way they won’t leave.  They will see the love of Jesus..  We need to remember this part.

Preachers in this time where giving themselves all the credit for the good things that were happening and Paul told the church that basically the way you know that they are followers in Jesus is when they only give God the credit, because without Him we are inadequate. We need to remember we need Jesus always, we can NOT do this life on our own.

life is not easy, but this verse alone is a huge encouragement to how great God is! We are not crushed, we are not driven to despair, we are never abandoned by God and we are not destroyed.  sometimes we forget that God can take care of us when the world is gross, hateful, dark pit.  He can help you get through that depression, anxiety, loss, pain, anything.

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love you all! have a great week!