Find Faith in the Battle

my favorite song right now?  Fix My Eyes | For King & Country

the chorus is beautiful.

Love like I’m not scared

Give when it’s not fair

Live life for another

Take time for a brother

Fight for the weak ones

Speak out for freedom

Find faith in the battle

Stand tall but above it all

Fix my eyes on You

On You

beautiful right!?

a couple verses this week:

We live in our bubble and it is very hard to see people through anyone else’s eyes other than our own. God wants us to love people which means we have to have a different point of view of people. He wants us to see people as He sees them. It will change the way you have relationships and so much more.

Paul had just been through an extremely hard time in his life and still came out of it undefeated. He’s telling the church here that it doesn’t matter what the outside world does to us, Jesus will ALWAYS take care of us. We can go through heart ache, be poor, beaten, rejected and so much more and STILL get through it with God.

We confuse conviction and condemnation quite a bit in the christian culture and I think Paul wrote this perfectly. When you are convicted you feel led to do the right thing, to forgiveness. When you are condemned you want to turn away and it doesnt lead you to God. Can you get mad when convicted? Yes. But conviction will still lead you to Jesus unless you choose to turn away from Him.

This wasn’t about money. We wasn’t going to give every christian a ton of money. He sacrificed so much for us. He became human and died on the cross so we could be rich in life, become saved, and be in heaven with Him.

God always provides. He wants us to pour out to others not ONLY to help them, but so He can pour into us again and again.

Love you!



our first

8 years ago I lost a little girl. We named her Kenzie Lybertie and I carried her for 4 months before I lost her. It was the hardest thing I had ever went through in my life. At that point I felt like such a failure as a woman, devastated that I couldn’t fix what was ‘wrong’ with me. I thankfully had people in my life praying, supporting and there for me or I think my life would be different today.

I can look back now on that day with sweetness, knowing my daughter is in heaven, knowing that NOTHING was wrong with me and Jesus had me that whole time. I have 3 of the most amazing kids on planet earth and 2 little ones in heaven and I count myself a very blessed mom for that. I never want to live through that pain EVER again, but im so thankful for the road I have traveled.

To all moms out there that have lost a little one: you are not alone, you are loved, there is nothing wrong with you, and your baby is with Jesus.

From my husband:
Don’t forget the Dads too. It was just as hard for me during that time that I couldn’t even talk about it for over a year with out tearing up while I talked about it. Loosing a little one is rough on both parents. I am so blessed to have the amazing wife that I have in Tavi Laine White and so blessed with the three beautiful kids that we have now and knowing that there are two waiting in heaven for the rest of the family. To all the fathers who have lost any kids your not alone either and God has you in his hands and will be there always to help you through the tough times no matter how hard it may get.


i talk a lot about all this food I cook, but I dont post my own pictures! Here are some from this week:

My shrimp fried rice… minus the soy sauce because I got to the last step and realized we didn’t have any!! thankfully I have an awesome husband who seriously ran to the store and grabbed some for us so dinner was saved!  I got the recipe from here: 

these are HEAVEN!! Link here: is just one of my breakfasts, fried eggs, hollandaise, avocado, cheese and english muffins!

another.. I like eggs. lol  and last, but the best breakfast: eggs Benedict.. my first time making it, poached eggs and all.  They came out great! I learned to do this here:


woah commitment slow your roll.  I used to be the most committed person in the whole world I think.  I was so afraid to disappoint that I showed up everywhere early and I never backed out of anything I said yes to.  It’s not only how I was raised, but I was also so afraid to disappoint that it was almost a crippling fear to me.

Well, then I went through real life. (ps, an orange tractor just drove past my house.. which is in town.. what?!)  I went through the disappointment of people missing things they said they would show up to, missed going to things because rides backed out, and just plain got told no about things that meant a lot to me.  I also had kids, which basically meant I had to be late to everything, always. I slowly stopped committing in my life, backing out last minute or just plain told people no as well.  I eventually did nothing, so of course this is something that God has been working with me lately.

I say yes. I go to things that I can go to, and if I know I can’t I tell them the truth.  I’m not perfect and I never ever ever ever EVER will be, but i’m getting better at opening my heart and my commitments to others.

here are some great verses from this week:

Tithe is such a touchy subject I think and I don’t even understand why.. I think you can look up christians and non-christians alike and they will all tell you that when you give, you receive so much more.  This is Paul talking to the church about how they should not going be giving, but they should take the money out at the first of the week every week instead of right before he comes.  One, this give God the first of your money which I think is important spiritually because you showing God that He is first in your life.  Two, this makes sure you don’t lose or spend that money as time goes on, which has happened to me a lot and then i’m struggling hardcore to make up for that money again.  I don’t know if it is mediatory or not to give tithe.. I think that will be something I definitely study in the future, but I can tell you that my family has personally reaped the rewards of tithing.  We are not late on bills, there has never been a bill we can’t pay and when we are struggling something always happens to get us back on track.  That is an awesome testament to the world we live in, because a lot of people are struggling out there.  SO, give, and do it first before anything else.. see what happens. 🙂

I think this is a beautiful verse to tell us how much we mean to God.  He is who enables us, He fills us with the Holy Spirit, He identifies us as His own, He guarantees everything He has promised us.  SO many awesome things God gives us.

Someone had did something bad in the church that Paul was writing to at the time and it must have been pretty bad because he basically got punished, but he repented, he knew that what he did was wrong so Paul is telling them to forgive and comfort him before he basically leaves.  People do bad things, and there definitely needs to be consequences for the those things, but once they have asked for forgiveness we need to forgive them and love them and comfort them, strengthen them, counseling, anything that will help and encourage that person.  That way they won’t leave.  They will see the love of Jesus..  We need to remember this part.

Preachers in this time where giving themselves all the credit for the good things that were happening and Paul told the church that basically the way you know that they are followers in Jesus is when they only give God the credit, because without Him we are inadequate. We need to remember we need Jesus always, we can NOT do this life on our own.

life is not easy, but this verse alone is a huge encouragement to how great God is! We are not crushed, we are not driven to despair, we are never abandoned by God and we are not destroyed.  sometimes we forget that God can take care of us when the world is gross, hateful, dark pit.  He can help you get through that depression, anxiety, loss, pain, anything.

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love you all! have a great week!

Being De-vot[e]d

About 7-8 years ago I was offered this awesome opportunity to be a children’s pastor.  At that time I had just left college and while in college I had been apart of this HUGE children’s ministry that had probably hundreds of kids apart of it.  I had never had to plan a lesson, deal with kids one on one in a ‘classroom’ / ‘church’ setting, or do an event or class by myself.  I was so in love with the big production that I had seen that I had in my head that is was children’s ministry was.  Well, I was very wrong. not only did I only ever have 1-2 students maybe every other week, but I also had a very hard time coming up with lessons for us and getting the kids interest, or even me interested for that matter.  It ended up being something that I dreaded and I was really disappointed because I had set myself up for that to be what I did for the rest of my life.  Eventually they took the funds away to do children’s church and we went back to the church we originally were at.  That was such a big blow for me.  I was hurt by the pastors, I was disappointed in myself and I had some very hard personal things happening in my family at the same time.  I stopped doing ‘ministry’ type things after that because I didn’t want to go through the disappointment of letting myself down or anyone else in the path.  I sang a little, got a job a christian daycare for a bit, but for the most part I just told everyone I was trying to strengthen my relationship with God, when in all reality I was hiding from being hurt again.  We moved from Missouri to Wisconsin and that’s when I realized I had to work to keep my relationship with God going let alone anything else.  In the ‘bible belt’ where everyone went to church and everyone talked about God, I could just float along… but in Wisconsin where very little people talk about God in every day conversation and no one is expecting you to go to church on a sunday it became a huge struggle to stay committed.  I am now working at my relationship with Jesus, purposely making it to church every sunday, intentionally getting into the word of God and it’s opening doors to things I love.  I can now say I’m really working on my relationship with Him and I am getting more involved because I’m excited to and I’m ready for the next step in my life!!

so enough about me.

here are some verses from this week that touched my heart strings.

1 Corinthians 11:11

But among the Lord’s people, women are not independent of men, and men are not independent of women.

We as women always say ‘anything you can do, I can do better’ but it’s not a competition.. we need to work side by side to be strong because we both bring special abilities to the table to make things work!

1 Corinthians 12:26

If one part suffers, all the parts suffer with it, and if one part is honored, all the parts are glad.

Paul is talking to the church body here and how we should be helping each other and strengthening each other.  If we allow our ‘brothers’ to be weak then it only brings ourselves down as well.

1 Corinthians 13:13

Three things will last forever – FAITH, HOPE and LOVE – and the greatest of these is LOVE.

ugh, I could read this verse a million times and still love it.  Paul tells the church that eventually everything will fade away, everything will be gone, but the 3 things that will never leave are faith, hope and love.

1 Corinthians 14:34

Women should be silent during the church meeting.  It is not proper for them to speak.  They should be submissive, just as the law says.

another thing I love are controversial verses. lol.  I was upset reading this verse like ‘what Jesus?! I can’t talk at church?’ So I read up on it in my study bible to see what was going on here for Paul to say this. my study bible says this:

Does this mean women should not speak in church services today?  It is clear from 11:5 [But a woman dishonors her head if she prays or prophesies without covering on her head, for this is the same as shaving her head] women prayed and prophesied in public worship.  It is also clear in chapters 12-14 that women are given spiritual gifts and are encouraged to exercise them in the body of Christ.  Women have much to contribute and can participate in worship services.  In the Corinthian culture, women were not allowed to confront men in public.  Apparently some of the women who had become Christians thought that their Christian freedom gave them the right to question the men in public worship. This was causing division in the church.  In addition, women of that day did not receive formal religious education as did the men.  Women may have been raising questions in the worship services that could have been answered at home without disruption of the services.  Paul was asking the women not to flaunt their Christian freedom during worship.  The purpose of Paul’s words was to promote unity, not to teach about women’s roles in the church.

[page 1944, Tyndale Life application Study Bible, New Living Translation]

1 Corinthians 15:10

But whatever I am now, it is all because God poured out His special favor on me – and not without results.  For I have worked harder than any of the other apostles; yet it was not I but God who was working through me by His grace.

He is telling the church how is did not deserve to know Jesus while he was alive, but that Jesus still chose him even though he was not a ‘good’ person.  I love this verse because he is so humbled and so thankful for what God did for him and not only that, but it shows that ANYONE can come to know Jesus at any part of their lives and that God loves them!!

have a great weekend!



Prime has got me like…

listen.  Amazon Prime is killing me.  I just got it a month ago and like, all of my money goes to this.  They know what they are doing that one is FOR SURE.  I only bring this up because I was grocery shopping and of course I think about all the non-food items that I need and what do I do now? GO TO AMAZON. lol

onto the good stuff though.

This weeks meal plan!


again, the hubs is on days and I haven’t exactly been staying up with making him breakfasts so this week that changes

Eggs Benedict 

Eggs Benedict Bake by Better Homes & Garden

This is a big bake and I can make multiple at a time.  I’m hoping this will work though because the eggs seem like a lot of work.. ugh. I hope so because I love me so Eggs Benedict

Blueberry Croissant Puff

Blueberry Croissant Puff by The Girl Who Ate Everything

I made this 2 weeks ago and it sets perfectly.  He was able to eat it all week and it is SO simple!  I making it with raspberries and blackberries. 🙂


Best Hot Dog EVER

Best Hot Dog You Will Ever Eat by the Food Charlatan

I have not tried this yet, but It has a lot of ingredients that I love so much! and look at this picture!! It looks SO GOOD!

Easy 20-Minute Garlic and Herb Baked Cod

Easy 20-Minute Garlic and Herb Baked Cod by Lauren Slatest

This recipe is so easy and seriously makes the yummiest fish ever.  Now that summer is coming upon us I have been craving light summery foods and I think this is a great addition to summer meals!

Buffalo Chicken Quesadillas 

Buffalo Chicken Quesadillas by Gimme Delicious

This recipe has become a staple in our home.  they are fast, delicious and everyone will eat them!  Try these!!

Seasoned Baked Chicken Nuggets

Baked Chicken Nuggets by Alice Currah on PBS Kids

another thing we make all the time.. I usually have friend chicken nuggets, but we are going baked this week!  ps I always marinade my nuggets in pickle juice!! It makes a big difference!

Guacamole Chicken Burgers

Guacamole Chicken Burgers by Yummy Healthy Easy

I have made chicken burgers one time and they came out pretty good so I decided to try a different recipe and this sound DELICIOUS. Ill make both the hamburger buns and the hot dog buns with this recipe below (click on the picture)!  This recipe is so tasty and so easy!

Homemade Buns by Nourishing Joy

Side Dishes:

Jalapeño Popper Dip

Jalapeño Popper Dip by The Country Cook

So this dip really tastes just like Jalapeño Poppers and it is seriously SO good, even warmed up days after.  A must if you have friends over and again, not hard to make at all.


Oatmeal Cookie S’Mores Gooey Bars

Oatmeal Cookie S’mores Gooey Bars by Chelsea’s Messy Apron

this has been on my ‘to cook’ list for a long time.. doesn’t it look so FREAKING yummy? It does to me and now that it is getting to summery weather I can’t see why I should hold off any longer! Hope you all love these! I know I will!!



Summer days around the corner…

little known fact: I haven’t been making time for blogging

I love blogging.  Having bits of my life out there in the world to look back on one day intrigues me.  I want my kids to be on the internet one day and read about day when they were little.  That just makes me happy knowing that could happen one day.  On the other hand, daily life takes a toll on me.  between taking care of 3 little bits, maintaining a house, preparing, shopping for and cooking meals, doing bills and then every little event that happens throughout the week; I just don’t have time always to sit down for a half an hour to hour to write. SO, I will probably always post here, but I will probably not always be consistent.

so happy reading when it’s written!

highlight of the week:

My oldest came home from school a couple days ago with a WORM in her backpack!! Her and her friend had found one on the playground and pulled it in half (because she learned earthworms can be cut in half and grow their bodies back).  Somehow she got it into her backpack with no one noticing and then made it home with it.  She tried to sneak it outside, but I caught it.  Now her half of a worm is living in her flower pot outside.

the great adventures we have.